Monday, October 08, 2007

My knee weakness had made me feel like I have needed comfort and I have sought it
from a lot of different sources. One of those sources has been Sean. I let down my "rules of engagement" because I have missed him and I have been lonely..also I've felt sorry for myself. for those reasons I sought comfort from spending time with him. Which is fine except once I cross a line it is always hard to go back. It started that I was talking to him a lot on the phone. Then when I did go back to church I sat with him a couple of times, then we went to a play "Grease" together last weekend. Then on Sunday I suggested going to breakfast next week. He always agrees but he shows hesitancy..I can hear it in his voice. And I know why...he remembers how attached I get and that painful talk we had to have in April. So, I must go back to my side of the boundaries that we have established..it is for the best. But its not easy..

I changed our breakfast to a group breakfast with Annamarie and Louise, that's a start.
I need to seek my strength from the Lord, not from other people...or from FOOD! Which is another story...