Last week I noticed that I get all cranky. I was trying very hard to get a lot accomplished, to be a good daughter. Yet, I was impatient and thought arrogant thoughts when mother did or said something that did not go along with my mental plans. If I thought she was slowing me down, or making me do something I didn't want to do or thought was dumb I cop'd an attitude. All this while studying the "Christian disciplines". I could feel this stiffness in me; the tenseness that demanded that I get everything on my list done.

So after wearing myself and everyone around me out on Tuesday. I decided to "stop hurrying" like a guy in the book I am reading suggested. I decided that I would relax and get done what I can but not kill myself off and be cranky with everyone else. That helped. I've been trying to be more willing to be servant hearted, but it's hard. The inner old Charlotte is very strong.

I decided to not take the 2nd summer course this summer. I am more busy when I am home trying to ride the horses than when I got to work two days per week!